It's almost 1am here. I'm super tired but I thought I'd make a journal entry anyway.
Today I ended up cleaning the crap out of my place, making alot of room(still need to throw out alot). I broomed a shit ton of dust out of here, which is super great. Did some laundry, bought a rice cooker. Did a bunch of gathering stuff in FFXIV lol... Super productive I feel. Really should have gotten some sketching in.
Lately, I go to the boardroom for lunch to sit around with some co-workers to draw and munch on some food. I really enjoy the things everyone talks about and stuff. I feel it's good for me , even though, some people seem to get bothered by some of the subjects and end up just leaving the room O_O.
The show I'm working on just started airing
Here's an episode of it, for some reason my name isn't in the credits for this episode XD not sure how long it'll be up before it gets taken down www.dailymotion.com/video/x3cu…
But ya, it's been really fun. I feel like I've been doin' an alright job on my part (even though I moan and complain alot).
I still feel super d duper alone. Part of me enjoys the hell out of it...but another part is screaming in agony everyday O_O. Some days it just takes one song or word to send me into a poopy funk. I've stopped crying for a good long time now though XD Work helps alot with that and so does Final Fantasy XIV. It's like a second job.
Oh! I've also started playing Undertale as well. Man... That game... The feels O_O You should try it out, seriously. It's great! I can't believe I was gonna kill everyone in it XD.
Welp.. I'm super tired, and like I've said before, I'm sure no one really reads these journals of mine, but I'd like to end with a nagging thought or something of mine... Something that really bothers me, is how there's some people I meet who I start off getting along with REAL swell!... then somehow along the way, they end up just straight out stop talking to me. I have no idea what happened. Did I creep them out? O_O did I annoy them? say something that really pissed them off or offended them? No idea... Maybe I just don't know how to make friends anymore XD.
This isn't something new either. I'll always make some new friend, we get along swimmingly..but just out of nowhere, they hate me or something O_O. I remember finding out down the road that one girl thought I had the hots for her(which wasn't the case at all -_-... ) so she pushed me away instead of just talking to me about it. I'm usually too afraid to bring it up to them and just go "So ya... umm.. How come you seem to be giving me the cold shoulder lately?" .. I just feel like it would somehow make things worse. They might get even more scared even though I'm just being straight up with them : /. This is usually with women, but has on occasion happened with guys before. Hell! My best friend even tried to shoo me away when we were kids lol.
Maybe I'm just too weird O_o. I find people think there's a hidden meaning in everything I say -_-. I dunno... or maybe I'm just a dickbag! who knows.. Anyhoo! Have a lovely week..... everyone?