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It's Canada Day. I'm inside, playing league of legends, getting very frustrated with losing games and the heat/humidity. Doing laundry and stuff too, cuz all my stuff stinks. I don't really celebrate anything anymore... everything just seems to have lost it's magic. I look at people at work who are so full of life and energy, and I couldn't be bothered. My landlady keeps pushing me to go outside and meet people, but I really don't think I want to. 

 I also joined OkCupid. A couple of people wanted to meet. I was very excited at first..but then I started to think (but then I can't do all the things I LIKE to do...). It's like.. I want to be in a relationship..but don't at the same time. I think I just want to fill the void that's been left. I feel like I would just settle for the first person to come my way.. but I don't want to do that anymore.. I can't do that anymore. 

I just... almost wish I could just head back home to Ottawa again. I mean.. I could.. but..there's stuff I have to do here first. Like.. one namely, finish off my contract, get the divorce in order..if she hasn't started that yet. I dunno... It's really hard to find joy in things anymore. Sure I laugh at podcasts and videos and stuff, but it's fleeting.

A friend asked me days ago "What is this? What is existence? Why do we exist?". So I've been asking random friends and omegle strangers. Most people just don't want to deal with it, or they give answers like "Cuz god created us" "cuz butt sex" "to live your life to the fullest". 

I mean, I guess you can't really answer it... I dunno. Nothing really makes sense anymore. I don't think we'll come up with the answer in my lifetime.

How are you? :D I know no one really comments here, but, if you want, just let me know how you are :D
  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: jazz stuff
  • Playing: League of Legends
  • Drinking: water
Newtlook by garuhn
Newtlook
I did this a long while ago. It's an icon of Newt from Pirate Express. I was chatting with a friend while making it. 

Just never thought of putting it up. Well, whatever, I think it looks.. ok
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I've been commanded.

Comment and I will:

 1.- Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your DA for 20 seconds. 

 2.- Tell you a color you remind me of. 

 3.- Tell you an element I think you belong to (e.g.: water, fire, earth, air, etc.)

 4.- Tell you what character you remind me of.(anime,manga,movies,books,etc.)

 5.- Ask you a question, and you must answer.

 6.- Tell you something that I like about you. 

 7.- Tell you what I'd say if we woke up in the same bed.

 8.- Tell you what food/flavor/smell you remind me of. 

 9.- Guess your gender

 10.- Tell you to put this on your journal

JUST DO IT 
MAKE YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE
  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: Bonobo - Transmission
  • Watching: Destiny ( http://www.twitch.tv/destiny )
  • Playing: nuthin
  • Drinking: water
Now that I'm all alone now, weekends are awesome...but also...not so much. I have all the time in the world now, but it's usually me playing some random game, or just league. Then once I'm bored of that, I usually just sit here on my butt doing nothing. I browse the web, until my eyes bleed. I think about leaving the house every now and then, but I think better of it. Where will I go? why? but PEOPLE!!! and stuff...and bugs!...and sunlight...

So weekends are now just me biding my time until work. I don't have very many friends here, and they're usually all busy. I don't even care for drinking all that much either. It's so much better to sit around with people and have a brew, just talking the night away.

I ended up signing up on some dating sites...yet.. I don't want to date anyone O_o, I think I just want someone to talk to, I dunno... I love being alone, but hate it at the same time. I don't know what I'm expecting out of those sites when I'm not seeking anything -_-.

I don't really chat it up with people at work. I've been so focused on my shots that I end up going into this weird zone where I'm just completely inept at talking or I get hit with the reality of being utterly alone and I become super sad(uncontrollable -_- ) . I may have creeped out some of my coworkers XD, but that's ok I guess... it's probably best for them they don't talk to me anyway.

I feel like I'm just wasting time and I'm going nowhere. I even bought a guitar to try and learn, to make time seem less poopy. I want to draw stuff too, but.. it's funny, when I'm at work, I end up drawing all this stuff FOR work, and for goofin' around. I get all these ideas, but when I get home, I lose the inspiration and head to the computer for gaming XD.

I'm not really going anywhere with this, I guess I just wanted to say some stuff that was on my mind.
  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OZf6oZnXuto
  • Watching: Destiny ( http://www.twitch.tv/destiny )
  • Playing: League of Legends
  • Drinking: water

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garuhn
KP
Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
Canada
Just a dude who lives in Vancouver, and wants to be an animator! (But secretly just wants to play video games all day long...whoops)

Current Residence: Vancouver
Favourite cartoon character: Fry and Eek the Cat
Personal Quote: "Everything always works out in the end."
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It's Canada Day. I'm inside, playing league of legends, getting very frustrated with losing games and the heat/humidity. Doing laundry and stuff too, cuz all my stuff stinks. I don't really celebrate anything anymore... everything just seems to have lost it's magic. I look at people at work who are so full of life and energy, and I couldn't be bothered. My landlady keeps pushing me to go outside and meet people, but I really don't think I want to. 

 I also joined OkCupid. A couple of people wanted to meet. I was very excited at first..but then I started to think (but then I can't do all the things I LIKE to do...). It's like.. I want to be in a relationship..but don't at the same time. I think I just want to fill the void that's been left. I feel like I would just settle for the first person to come my way.. but I don't want to do that anymore.. I can't do that anymore. 

I just... almost wish I could just head back home to Ottawa again. I mean.. I could.. but..there's stuff I have to do here first. Like.. one namely, finish off my contract, get the divorce in order..if she hasn't started that yet. I dunno... It's really hard to find joy in things anymore. Sure I laugh at podcasts and videos and stuff, but it's fleeting.

A friend asked me days ago "What is this? What is existence? Why do we exist?". So I've been asking random friends and omegle strangers. Most people just don't want to deal with it, or they give answers like "Cuz god created us" "cuz butt sex" "to live your life to the fullest". 

I mean, I guess you can't really answer it... I dunno. Nothing really makes sense anymore. I don't think we'll come up with the answer in my lifetime.

How are you? :D I know no one really comments here, but, if you want, just let me know how you are :D
  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: jazz stuff
  • Playing: League of Legends
  • Drinking: water

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Sinisterk Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Really nice imagery man, it's like graphics
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garuhn Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Danke
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Hoenn-Master Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013
Thank you for the favorite!
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garuhn Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Np yo!
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MichaelFay Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2013  Professional Filmographer
Thank ya kindly for the watch!
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garuhn Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
not a problem, you've got some neato stuff :D
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MichaelFay Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Professional Filmographer
Thanks!
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mCanzi Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013
Hey sexay beast!
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garuhn Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey! :D
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mCanzi Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013
Yo!
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